this is hard

Hey guys, I am a mental mess right now.  I didn't do very well today, i did okay.  It is just tough, this is such a mental challenge. I feel not good enough, even though I know I am! I can not help but get down, Im living with girls who are already on the team, and im ashamed that I am not. I know I still have a shot but after tonight I am just so down on myself.  I did so well the first try out, but it hurts that that wasnt enough.  The coaches told me the door is still open, but I have to really pull it together in the game on Thursday, to make the team. This is a real challenge, but when it comes down to it its just soccer.  Yes I love soccer haha but there is more to life, like my wonderful family, friends, Stanton, nugey bear, I guess I just need some confidence...nothing new haha