Hey guys,
Kind of down today. It is hard seeing the coaches hand papers over for other new girls to sign in front me, and talking about the future and the team. I am just sitting there watching and waiting, not knowing if I'm good enough or not. I don't have a big name for myself like these girls have, and it is against me.
This was really hurting me, but now I realize its okay. I may not have a big name, been on a national team or anything, but I know I have heart, and that I am good enough. I have showed that I am good enough and it hurts that they still don't know if they should take me or not, sometimes I feel like they are dragging me along waiting for something better to come along.
I can say that I am glad I am not built up, I a glad I am not in the papers, this could send my head and my heart the wrong way. I am not here to get praised, but to give praise and my best. I don't mind being the underdog. I just had to work 100 times harder. God gave me the skill of soccer, I don't deserve any praise and recognition.
Soccer does not define me, and I don't want it to. I have many parts to me :) I am trying hard to have a good attitude, I am struggling not knowing what the coaches are thinking. All I know is whatever happens I WILL BE OKAY and it WILL BE FOR THE BEST.
Miss you all, Hope life is great!
Lauren
Just do your best and learn from your experiences.
ReplyDeleteTry/Do anything at least once with no regrets, that's what I say. What an experience you're able to get there in England! Sooo many girls would kill to be in England just to visit, lets alone try out for a Soccer team!
Experience it all while you are there Lauren. Do your best and if ya come up short handed, who the eff cares.
I regret the way my career went because there were so many other things I wanted to try. I never thought I was good enough so I never pursued them.
However, I am thrilled to be doing what I'm doing now. I couldn't have asked for more.
Everything happens for a reason, just remember that! One door opens for every door that closes, it's the truth!
Love ya sis... do yuor best with no regrets. Attitude goes a long way and peeople see it so keep your chin up NO MATTER WHAT!
xx
Thanks brother, good advice, your so right!
ReplyDeleteAnd I have a great opportunity to visit people all over Europe instead of play soccer, could be fun!!
Awesome character Lauren! You've been through years of tryouts in your youth and collegiate career. You are well prepared physically and emotionally for this process! All you can do is give it your very best(which I know you always do), and let the results fall where they fall. Life will take you down the correct path!
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I was told that You are ALWAYS Exactly where you are supposed to be... Nothing in Gods world happens by mistake Lobo. :) Every experience has a purpose... Let go of any expectations and live in the moment. You are an amazing soccer star chica... now go show those girls what you've got!
ReplyDeleteDominate those limey bastardettes! Just SCHOOL THEM. America!
ReplyDeleteThis is something you will cherish the rest of your life... Make it the time of your life no matter what comes of it. You have all of our support from across the pond.
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